Think of shirdi sai and there he is?.....true....

The next day evening me and my husband went for a long drive.I was telling about my dream and the context I got as reply...My husband knows very well I am mad after sai and he said the same “ As usual crazy’ I never opened my mouth but I wanted to see my sai .”I told my husband what the message I got is true? If so see we will see him in some time.” Then we got down from our car parked it on the road and took a walk...it was along road with less of people and activity...serene and beautiful. My husband asked me whether I would catch the birds chirp which was really very good at that 6.45 evening and all the birds were coming back to their nests.

I switched on my camera to movie mode and started shooting the birds and chirp. While I was shooting suddenly sai appeared in my camera....My happiness was boundless I zoomed and took him near and told my husband see My sai has come? He was also a bit taken aback he immediately took the car and we went to see my sai...He will be with us wherever we are and he will see us when he wants too...My dear sai My dear sai.....amidst the natural scenary and bird chirp we saw shirdi sai amazing and true.He will come when we really want him immediately even he is seven seas away...my dear sai

Aum Sairam

Sai you did not beat yoy blessed ?I know...

Usually I go to bed conversing about my the whole day happenings to my sairam. As usual I was recollecting the events and I could still feel the pain on my right cheeks and the yesterday night dream...I have never ever seen my sairam that angry but why are you angry with me sai?

My eyes filled with tears Helpless I went to bed crying...suddenly I wanted to read satcharita hence I switched on my table lamp and put my hands onto the table searching for it...I got the book on my hand but that was not sai satcharita but the book was “ god who walked on earth” by by rangaswami parthasarathy.

Okie I thought sai is giving me a message through this book...I closed my eyes and opened the pages...I got the page 79 and the chapter was on ”A day with saibaba” I went through the page....The words I read were as follows:

Baba said”I get angry with none....Will her mother harm a little one? I love devotees. I am the bonded slave of my devotees. One reason given for Baba’s occasional burst of was that he might be driving away spells of thought or other ethereal waves which might be coming to harm his devotees or the people at large and the anger might be necessary to beat back those waves. His anger was evidently directed at unseen forces....

When Baba came to Shirdi as a young fakir he used to shout in anger, laugh or do other things which appeared to others as crazy. But evidently he was from beginning dealing with unseen forces and directing his anger and unconventional behavior at them.....

“Hei I get you my dearest sai I get you....You have always reasons for your behavior...I remember people telling I had such a fever when I was four years old and literally I died and came back fighting for my life in the hospital...true you have slapped me and send me back alive. I felt like seeing my sai immediately...i wanted to apologize fro my behavior in the dream....I want you sai I want to see you my dear sai....

Aum sairam

My sai you beat me in my dream? Why my dear sai.why?.

I think I was 4 years old then ....It was a beautiful evening ...I am somewhere standing in the middle of a garden playing happily.......a beautiful me in my childhood. Playing around running around....watching everything with inquisitiveness and questioning anything and everything .I was in our garden watching the lawn...The lawn looked pretty green and in different shades. I could see some blue bell flowers as weeds grown in between the lawn...I saw small yellow flowers creeping on the bunds they are tribulus terrestris flowers my father was interested in botany and taught me many scientific names for the flowers and insects. I saw violet and blue flocks in bunches next to the bunds I was enjoying the bird chirps and saw a beautiful dragon...I walked slowly behind the flying insect putting all my effort to catch it....at last getting the dragonfly wings together...tied them up with threads and made to lift a small stone with its foot. of course I plucked the tail of the dragon to make it not to fly...after playing for some time I got up from the garden plucked flowers in my hand singing happily...suddenly I was watching somebody cum near me ....hei It is my sai....saibaba of shirdi...with the torn kaffni and having a long bag on his shoulders...I was overwhelmed with joy I was running towards him with great happiness shouting my sai wait wait ....but all in vain he did not notice me...I ran very fast falling enroute getting up calling him sai sai ...atlast he slowly turned back I was breathing hard and shouting sai my sai He turned back and saw me...No kindness nor liking in his eyes. So morose he look at me. I was bit nervous and did not know how to proceed I was staring at him he looked totally a stranger and starred at me again....I had the dragon tied in the thread in one hand and a bunch of flower collected in the other...I was wearing a lovely white frock and really looking playful and awesome...I liked me for what I was...I was such a pure loving kid....but sai never liked me...One point of time I got scared about him. I thought may be he is not my sai and starred at him trying to move back a few steps away from him .Anybody would have hugged me for what I was then...but my sai moved a step away and slapped me on my face ...I was very much upset...throwing the bunch of flowers from my hand and when I was about to run sai ram came near me told” How dare you entered my garden premises...Sairam was shouting and yelling at me...I was so upset...I wanted to hit him back and shout too but he was a huge and elderly person but I was so small in stature and age and a helpless 4 year child I never liked him at that moment I was scared and started running away from him crying throwing away the bunch of flower in my hand and running away from my dear sai with anger and fear...I hated him for his words and scary personality....I was crying helpless... I could not stand that... with a sudden jerk I woke up from bed my hands were trembling with fear my it was a very happy and a very very bad dream....My sai why were you so angry with me in thr dream?I saw the time it was 1.30 PM ....i was terribly upset and not at all comfortable and My sai has scolded me for me not doing anything...I went on recollecting my actions for his anger...by the time it was 6O’ clock in the morning ,with a heavy heart I got up from my bed .....I never liked my dear sai in that dream.You know....But why did you beat me my dear sai ? That too when I was very innocent four year old child...and why did you shout at me?I hate that moment .i cannot take it as a light dream....But sai I donot have anybody but only you.Even if you hate me I cannot hate you...why my dear sai why?you beat me ....

Aum sairam