Sai nowadays I started peeping through my window to see the next door nowadays... I started bothering for the unused grinder from the day one you made me to see . That grinding stuff is still kept aside without being used without a handle. Neither a human force nor the input to work that out, it is really disturbing my mind sai..
It is not the grind but the thought what my Sai said about grinding concept in the “Sai-bible” in other words “The Sri Sai satcharita”. I have to get rid of my avagunas (bad qualities) and ahangkar (ego) I want to work out a program for that I suppose.Can I work out an executable program for this?
But sai many things I program with perspective plans, breaking them with immediate objectives, annual objectives and long term objectives with a bench mark to measure and mid term corrections with all meticulous planning I miserably fail at times. And of course my planning will picturise a very futuristic angle with long term goals. At times it doesn’t work at all sai...Why Sai?
Why should I draw plans? Nothing happened in the way as I wanted many times.
I nowadays realize that I myself am a written program. All the steps sequenced and only job for me is to execute that like a machine rather.
So many important things happen in my life without my prior knowledge. I was born into this world, and one day going to leave this world the time of entry and exit is unknown. I don’t choose my mother or father that is also not my choice. So many things I learn and unlearn, and when important things are already being destined then where comes my karma question? I use to think many times that I am the sole authority for my life and for all my actions but now I realize it, I am not. The truth is that I myself is somebody’s creation...Who am I? Am I a meager step by step instruction of an already written executable program or an event driven program? And who are you sai? In this program business which part do you play? Did you create me? For which you will answer “No child there is a person above all of us who created us? Then who are you to me sai? Tell me sai who are you? Why am I hooked up like this talking to you all the time? Why should I like you first of all? Why sai? Why?
Aum Sairam
