Online Chat with Shirdi saibaba

me: Dear Sai r u der?

Saibaba: ......

Me: Sairam r u der?

me: Dear Sai r u der?

Saibaba: ......

Me: Sairam r u der?

me: Dear Sai r u der?

Saibaba: yes...

me: why did you take such a time to respond to me

Saibaba: Dear child I have millon windows open... and many are calling and I हवे

to answer them as well tell me dear.. what do you want?

me: let millions be there I want you as soon as I want to talk to you

Saibaba: .......

me: Why are you keeping mum?

Saibaba: ......

me: Are you angry with me?

Saibaba: ......

me: How long you want मीto wait

Saibaba: ......

me: Sometimes I feel like loosing faith in you...you know?

Saibaba: really tell me the truth...

me: You are my sai I know you will listen to me. You are mine....

Saibaba: Listen dear I am with you always you have tested this umpteenth time but I am telling you the same

me: okie

Saibaba: I have so many windows kept open all are in a hurry what to do? Understand this ...child

me: I become restless

Saibaba: No one should ever become restless

me: it is easy to say than to do you know

Saibaba: I know child patience and faith alone can show me to you

me: So what should I do

Saibaba: Learn patience and faith and see

me: See what....you always...sure

Saibaba: Very sure ... patience and faith will make me with you for ever okie try that my child then you need not come through this window you can find me within you dear...this is for sure...

Noon aarthi at shirdi is a boon

Again after breakfast on 24^th of November 2007, we were driven towards sai....we were in the long queue once again to see our beloved sai...I had two gifts given to me by sai one is my husband and another is my daughter....whenever I use to fight with him in my young age for not given me a mother and taken my grandfather who will look like sai.I think sai has compensated with the two gifts I suppose

I have the very bad habit of fighting with close people....I often do that with my sai...I will cry I will beat and not talk to him....and again with lot of gilt I will go to him asking to forgive me....you se my sai is great no day he has treated me like how I treat him one day with scolding one day with affection one day with anger one day with day full of bhajans crazy personality like me...but My sai is great he always remains the same...He treats me the same way any day...

My husband was telling since we are early and already in the queue we will get his dharshan by 10.30 am itself...even I was feeling the same....but in corner of my mind I was asking sai whether he will allow me to be with him for the noon aarthi (12.00..)...but the queue is moving fast and I felt sai is going to send me back with a quick dharsan....I made up my mind that I am gifted to see him again ......but to my surprise the queue got to move slow and we were made to wait....pre-preparation going on for the noon aarthi....unbelievable are the sai leelas....he will listen to all the wimps and fancies and I need not be very ritualistic as well...He will do the needful like a very next person standing beside you ....you are great sai

I am now placed to sit in front of sai for the noon dharshan.....again see sai he wants me to recollect his close people....I could think of Deepa, Piyush goel ....I was aloud to think of them only for some time by sai...I prayed for them I knew sai caters their need but he made me to pray for them as well then....I was thanking sai for giving me his dharshan and to take care of me my husband my family as usual selfish wishes....then suddenly the aarthi started and I was singing along with the crowd...a very small point in a very big pixel diagram without me also this whole feeling exists ...I was thanking sai for allowing me as one point in that pixel for those seconds and minutes .....The whole of my heart ached with joy...unbound joy...thanking sai for providing such opportunity through my husband.....Sai is contagious and nobody can escape his blessings once they get him on them....thanks Sai forever for your dharshan....My mind is not with me then ....I think we have to get up and go near him after the aarthi I was pulled by my husband to walk towards him.....Full of goodness I liked me for what I am in front of my sai....I am not that good a person always....

Thanks Sai to make me good at least for some minutes...if only you could make me that person always....without any thoughts and deeds sai and only sai in the mind and my husband by my side...thanks sai...thank you very much...for all you have given me....

With Sai in shirdi....

On 23^rd of November we were traveling towards shirdi from auranghabad ....I am quite tensed because of traffic jam we have to wait and wait.....I wanted to meet Baba the same night but why Sai.......you want to remind me of your teaching “patience and faith...” My wobbling mind settled down slowly with patience.....At last we reached and stepped into shirdi soil by 11.30 PM......Fragrance of Sai lingering in and around the premises but I have to still wait ......I am again loosing my patience with such a rushing urgency to see him ...but I have to sleep till the dawn....sai again you are putting into deal...again telling patience is needed.....many times you make me realize sai

I remained quite....and went to sleep tiring journey the day activities at Mahatma Gandhi Mission Institute of lecturing etc made me sleep at last.....sleep is the best medicine and it really worked wonders

Next day 24^th morning my husband woke me up stating it is 3.00 in the morning....I rushed through brushing my teeth and a quick wash fine I was ready...We walked fast the few yards carrying Sai in the mind....A long queue and we again to wait for hours....But we could see him get up through online media....communication technology does wonders all standing in the queue could watch him.....Sairam Sairam Sairam and nothing else filled my heart.....and we could smell feel and realize sai and only sai.....all around...The devotees were chanting his name all along and watching him over wall mounted Television....The morning kakat aarthi activities started and a very deep serene feeling of being with sai....I don’t have words to describe it......it can only felt.....I was bit selfish and asking sai why he did not take me near him for kakat aarthi....

I know there are millions of people close to him and me (a selfish person) among many ....a small drop in the big ocean of sai devotees...I was wondering how could he satisfy so many...not leaving any...a father standing before me conversing with a small child identifying and explaining sairam in the video as our god to his child...sai sends message for every question only thing is we must have patience to listen to him and understand him feel him.....

Kaka aarthi started and many were chanting that and me to join the ocean and experienced the vibrations...we are slowly entering the shrine of sai as soon the aarthi is over....Going nearer and nearer makes all my heart and muscle to pound....but the only thought I could get is about the child who took Sairam as her father and mother.....The thought went on and on and I could not pray anything other than praying for her.....My god how much of love sai has towards her I could feel...though I am physically there he radiated his concern towards that child.....Sai is great and assured he will take care....with eyes full of tears and heart full of pleasure I came out of the shrine....To my surprise I was not asked by anybody to move....Sai wanted me there to stay......I realized that slowly and I wanted to move slowly to give way to many waiting....sai your presence is so good I wanted to be with you for ever like that...I use to have the same feeling whenever I visit Lord oppiliappan at Thirunageshvaram....Sai are you Oppilli....The one question I asked and turned around and my husband with his happy face asked me did you have good dharshan shall we move...I slowly moved out with lingering feel of sai......

Trip to shirdi .......

It was on 22^nd of November 27, 2007 a Friday. I and my husband started towards shirdi. SaiRam wanted to take me comfortably…..It was through my husband the message came…..He said he will take me by flight to see my sai baba on my birthday…..I could not find words to thank for this Birthday gift ever in my lifetime…..But one thing for sure…unless sairam wishes one cannot see him...true.

We boarded into the flight at Chennai airport……within 2.15 hrs we were in Pune. Professor Dev. Mahatma Gandhi Mission Institute is another Messiah sent by sai to take us from Pune to auranghabad by car...Sometimes god comes in the form of Human….yes... Prof Dev is one such kind...He drove the car all the way from auranghabad to pune and back....and he accompanied all through 4 days with us there on....Even my closest kith and kin would not have done...may be they lend vehicle place to stay but to be with us all the time only some can do......I take Prof Dev as messiah send by Sai.....

En-route we had Punjabi thaali at “cosmic stone” highways motel.....after that prof Dev started talking about so many information about sai and the history behind auranghabad. His history knowledge is too god and very vast deep and thought provoking...We reached auranghabad and boarded into a hotel....We visited the Prof house and we socialized for more than four hours. He is gifted to have two loving and obedient daughters I felt like flicking them with me...

Good people good family assured stay....thanks sai you gave me.....assurance that you are going to see me at shirdi......I am going to have good darshan... All positive and good vibration the feel of god...with the pleasantries me and my husband went to sleep....

Thanking Sairam for that day....